When I hear a negative voice in my head saying, “I am in over my head, they are going to find out,” this little voice reminds me I am not good enough. It seeks to devalue my self worth causing me to underestimate myself. Then I come to the conclusion that l must be mad about choosing to be an artist. I realise that l have volunteered myself for all this self-doubt. I feel like l am pretending to be an artist. If l am not careful the voice gets out of control and my self-confidence is eroded. It is hard to break the psychological patterning in which I fear… Read More »Pretending to be a painter
I dream of sitting in my dusty studio. I can smell the pungent scent of turpentine. I can see the photographs and sketches stuck on the wall. Devils Haircut, by Beck, plays in the background and newspapers, magazines and books litter the paint-covered floor. I have a primed blank canvas on the easel, all ready to go. I sit, staring and reflecting on what to do next. I wonder shall I draw or paint today? I wish there was nowhere else l have to be. I often only wish it was true; that I had nowhere else to be. The idea of being unbound by time feels like the ultimate emancipation.… Read More »Is time the artist’s greatest enemy?
I love what I do. I want to go to my studio every day and have a perfect day. On my perfect day I want to express something of significance. Once I am in my studio, my mind starts to make connections. By fostering a studio practice with risk-taking and openness, I open an infinite space. Every painting l create opens a new conversation about, What if? I like to stay open to the possibility of generating tension in my work. I don’t want to overthink what I am doing. Words have never been a strong point of mine, so l stick with making art to express myself. Words about sincere motives and… Read More »What do I love about being an artist?
Often when I turn on the shower and step in, I turn on a shower of thoughts. I’m not sure why it happens in the shower, but I think it is a favourable place to be flooded with thoughts and ideas. My mind also, unfortunately, wanders when I am painting. Over time, I have realised I have become a professional daydreamer. This is the wrong time and the wrong place to be imagining the future. I feel the need to gain some self-mastery of my busy creative mind. I used to think dreaming about the future was my reward for taking on an almost impossible creative challenge. At times, I… Read More »Dreaming about success
I was taught at school that everything had to be right. I was encouraged to conform so that when I grew up I would make a good employee. Education was stifling. I was urged to aim for perfection; however, I was a long way away from achieving that. Sketching and doodling were discouraged, learning from failure was hindered. As a consequence, I had no idea how to rebound from a failed painting. When I started to learn to paint I use to stop, look and make a judgment about my progress. I worried I was wasting my time and making a blunder. I hated being wrong. It is a struggle to complete… Read More »Rebound from a failed painting
Most artists share the same fear and dread, a bad review! You think it’s all over. It makes you feel reluctant to share your work. I can imagine the day a museum curator knocks on my studio door with good news, and there is no answer. The bell keeps ringing…. The curator keeps trying to get an answer until he/she realises something terrible might have happened. Eventually, they gain access to find me dead under an incredible amount of bad art. So much so that they can just see two feet sticking out of the bottom. Do they run for help? No, they are horrified by how much bad art… Read More »Painter Killed By Critique Of His Own Bad Art
I am happiest when I realise that there is something to investigate, something that doesn’t quite fit. I love the slow development of an idea. The slow convergence of thoughts that often come after a period of incubation. l realise then that there is a problem worth tackling, a problem that is going to become my muse. It is exciting to think that possibly, this concept hasn’t occurred to anyone else. If it has occurred to someone before me, they will likely approached it in a completely different way. I love my work more than what it produces. I love going deeper, I just follow my hunch and allow… Read More »I love my work more than what it produces
I crave for a life without physical, mental or financial constraints. It has been my intention not to have limits on what I do, what I say or how I spend my time. I want to make what I want, when I want. One of the attractions of being an artist is the concept of free expression. However, our culture, often wires us up to do what is safe and sensible. In my experience, it takes discipline to have creative freedom. Commercial art is a good, sensible way of making a living from art. It has a project outline, a list of do’s and don’ts and set deadlines. To get paid you… Read More »It takes discipline to have creative freedom
In Malcolm Gladwell’s book, ‘David and Goliath, Underdogs, Misfits and the Art of Battling Giants,’ Gladwell considers how disadvantages can be advantageous. I found his book insightful and it made me think about the art collectors role in society. The book starts with the story about the conventional interpretation of the familiar biblical tale of David and Goliath. In the story David is the symbol of the underdog. However, Gladwell explains in his interpretation, that there is another view of the ‘underdog’. Related post; An art collector role in society Finding a love for collecting art David’s sling is a devastating weapon. It was one of the most feared weapons… Read More »An art collector’s role in society
I believe finding a love for collecting art is about finding an artist with a kindred spirit to yourself. Artists critique all areas of life, from nature to politics to the social system. They look not just on the surface, but they investigate and ask questions in order to seek new meanings and associations. When I come across a work that l feel a connection with, I write down the artist’s name. I also Iook for websites and galleries that exhibit the said artist’s work, and I join their mailing lists. I can then delight in opening my inbox and finding compelling communication. My advice is to broaden your… Read More »Finding a love for collecting art